No, I will not live like this for another month. The scattered boxes and packing materials will be consolidated soon. I like the little hopeful plants in an old mug which I will keep that sits on the newly cleaned passthrough. It's never been this empty since I moved in 11 years ago.
I have lived 19 years in Black Mountain. It's pretty incredible that so much of it has been in this one space.
Today is Summer Solstice, Litha in traditions brought from the western Europeans from whom I am descended.
Another blogger posted an old photo with a Midsummer Pole, which I was surprised to see. It is indeed a different pole style than the MayDay, Beltaine Pole. Why didn't I remember that? Well, there's only so much memory accessible in the old grey cells. Zing, there goes another neuron spinning off into an unknown connection!
Speaking of which, I remember 14 months ago, when I applied for various low-cost apartments in the southwest, hoping to live nearer my youngest son and wife, as well as a place where maybe the drier air would help my breathing.
But having spent another 4 nights hospitalized with pneumonia just a week or so before I went to visit the southwest of Colorado, I also was considering my mortality.
I would go to bed feeling like I could either die the next day, or work on moving plans. Neither happened, for quite a while...well, the former has yet to happen as you can tell.
So a year later I can finally move to Durango CO.
And the challenge for the next month is to put belongings into moveable tubs and boxes, and throw out or give away the things I do not use. That's a lot of shifting of stuff. Which is why there are so many things all over the living room above.
You don't see the 3 bags of trash which will strain my back to get tossed into the trash bins this morning. I had to double bag the papers, because even half full, they are quite heavy.
And I should definitely take a cart full of things to the laundry room to give to my neighbors who might benefit from them. An old ironing board, and my coffee maker are seriously under consideration. I've been making espresso into Americanos for the last few weeks, and haven't used the ironing board for a thing. Mmm, I could use it for a plant stand I suppose. NO NO NO, Barb! You have an opportunity to lighten up your life (once again.)
You might remember this about me, I have moved over 30 times in my adulthood...perhaps 50. So packing and unpacking are somewhat familiar. However, this time I'm actually going through the papers which weren't touched in the move 19 years ago when I retired from FL.
I am trying to think of this as a creative process, not a destructive one.
Thanks John Pavlovich, as always:
ReplyDeleteThe only real control we have is in how we decide to show up in the world, no matter what the condition of that world is.
Today, resist the temptation to be disheartened by the pain in your path, the cruelty you come across, or the hatred that seems to be winning.
Inventory what is within your control and choose wisely.
You’re alive. That’s really good news…
That quote should have quotes on it. My bad!
DeleteIt's daunting, but you seem to have a handle on it.
ReplyDeleteAnd when I get a back ache, I take some form of pain relief. It helps me be able to do something. And then rest a lot!
DeleteAnd we should all ask ourselves- if we have papers we haven't looked through in well over twenty years, we probably do not need them so why do we keep them?
ReplyDeleteYou are doing yourself a huge favor, Barbara. This move is going to lighten your soul.
I found a picture I drew which was no longer important to me, threw it out. Then later I realized someone else might have liked to have it. Oh well...what's gone is gone!! I'm trying to be thoughtful in my winnowing, but sometimes wearing a mask while dealing with dust, my brain is only half awake. Today I've packed another box of books...and I think that's it! Just fragile things now...
DeleteIt's so hard to make those decisions - should it stay or should it go. You are doing great!!!
ReplyDeleteYes, Yes, the decision making process is so awful! I've already regretted a few things that were tossed. But that is final. No way I'm digging around in trash to retrieve anything! However, since that moment, I've decided to keep a few more sentimental treasures. At least they don't weigh much!
DeleteMy next door neighbor is moving, and his chaos spills over into my house! It's a lot of work.
ReplyDeleteOh yes, I know you've got Gary's plants. All my things are within these 4 walls...which are bursting at the seams!
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