I am quite busy looking back usually. Fifty years ago was probably my prime. Twenty years ago seems like yesterday. I investigate the lives of ancestors who lived hundreds of years ago!
But then I realize I don't have twenty more years ahead. That would make me 102...a count which I don't see is realistic.
Shock!
Do I have 10 more? At least 5 more? Geese, maybe just one? I'd better get busy!!
Thus I'm pushed back into today.
Those Zen folks knew what they were talking about.
If I had just one more day to live...what would it look like?
Well, I'm eating yogurt with blueberries. A bite must have both in it...the sudden squirt of blueberry juice between my teeth just is so grand. Then a bit of chewing in the soft yogurt through out my mouth kind of sticky since it's the thick kind. One berry has a stem on it too, do I eat it? Well why not...it disappears into becoming me. Just a bit more fiber there!
Oh wow, a bite with two berries in it.
OK, enough of breakfast, which includes a bit of bark in my coffee. Osho bark packed in honey, which is good for throat and lungs, I've been told. The coffee is French Roast, practically an espresso. what a medly of flavors, with French Vanilla creamer to take down the acidity.
I wondered if I were to lose my senses as I age (like it's still somewhere distant), which would be the easiest to live without. Smell. It's gradually gone. Taste comes and goes, with sweet remaining ever constant. I'm so grateful my eyes and ears work still. And touch - except for the shaky fingers. That is hard when I'm trying to center the cursor on something with the mouse. So far I can wiggle them up and down and type on the keyboard.
OK, enough about the physical beingness of myself.
Entertainment has been a free week of Brit Box. I'm also trying to live without YouTube TV...which affords me streaming live channels including seeing local news. I can finish binging Hawaii Five-0 soon. Do I want to switch to Brit Box (much cheaper per month actually!) Oh the movies they have! And old Agatha Christi...and new Brit murder mysteries! But I have to read the captions usually, which is a strain on the eyes.
Why not out in the woods you ask? Because the air has been full of Canadian wildfire smoke...but it rained most of yesterday, so it's only moderate this morning. Maybe later when the weather guys say it's good.
Off I go to write a birthday card to my daught-in-law, and get it in the mailbox going out to her!
2 comments:
I ponder that too, how many years left. But I don't do anything different, just go about my days and life like I always have.
Yes Ellen, nothing else works, but to just go through each day as it comes. Thanks for your comment.
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